I Feel Like You Don’t Know Me…

…and it breaks my heart. I feel like when you counter something I say it’s because you need to prove that you’re better than me, even when it’s something you don’t do at all, and I know well. Why would

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People. Fucking Be Cool.

UuuuuugggghhhhhhAAAARRRGGHHHHHHH!!! is the sound my anxiety makes when I wake up at 12:55am and do the incredibly intelligent thing. Which of course is looking at Facebook. There I learn that a transgender woman was held up for hours by TSA and missed her

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I’m Tired

Pain is exhausting and humbling. Debilitating and frustrating. Pain reminds you that you’re really all alone. I got kidney stones for the first time in January 2015. I thought I was dying. At the hospital, I was assured otherwise. Since

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F***ing Impossible!!

Whenever I’m struggling during a ride these days I picture my dad waiting for me at the next turn, atop the next hill, at the next intersection. This isn’t particularly fair of me: my mother is the parent who largely

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Loudness

I heard a friend of mine from half a block away today, talking to another mutual friend. There was mid-morning traffic going; we were near a fairly busy intersection near downtown and as I walked up, I made a joke

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Bike Talk

I noticed something while sorting bikes at my shop yesterday. Really nice bikes usually have about two words on the frame. Those two words are the manufacturer (e.g. Trek, GT, Bianchi) and the model (7100, Corsa, Volpe). Occasionally there will

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Entitlement

Once when I was living in Boulder, I spat over my shoulder while crossing an intersection on the bike path. I happened to be right behind a grey SUV. The guy driving it, who seemed like a perfectly normal person,

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